Peanut.

September 14, 2012.

Five years of marriage.

I can't believe it. These past five years have been the best I have ever experienced, and each and every day simply gets better and better.

Blake and I have had an amazing journey together, and we have began to build a great life with one another.

In the days nearing our anniversary, I looked back to when we were married and how I had imagined spending such a day....at a beach somewhere. 

Soaking in the sun, drinks in hand - a second honeymoon really.

I couldn't possibly imagine our five-year reality. 

Sitting at the doctor's office seeing this little peanut for the first time. Hearing that tiny heart beating like a drum inside of me.

It was a moment spent enveloped in a surreal realization that soon we will be parents. 

There is now suddenly more to this life than the two of us. 

And our lives will never be the same.

How cliche is that?

I am three months pregnant.

Little peanut will be welcomed into this world sometime around March 29, 2013.

I have so many emotions, feelings and concerns. 

From petty, shallow and selfish concerns surrounding my physical body to deep and overwhelming concerns about whether I can really do this.

Whether I can be a mother.

I am also excited. Sometimes so much that I am literally swallowing back tears of anticipation. 

I can't wait to meet this little peanut. To hold baby in my arms and make eye contact for the first time. 

Its absolutely incredible to think about.

All of these feelings that I have are nearly indescribable. I doubt my words can ever do them justice. 

When it comes down to it, Blake and I are consumed by the big three.  

We are excited. We are overwhelmed. And we are completely terrified.

Happy five year anniversary babe!

-Jess.